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Its a…
Mar 3rd
Yesterday we found out that baby IS A GIRL!!!! This morning I went shopping. I am proud of myself for only buying this one dress. This is my baby girl’s first dress. I plan to make many more like it, but until then this dress is going to hang up in P’s closet (soon to be baby girl’s nursery) in all it’s pink, flowery, girly splendor!
Test Anxiety
Nov 6th
I have the crampy tummy, the scattered brain, loss of focus and hightened emotions. I am nervous. I am done with school. I never thought the prospect of a test would get me all nerve racked ever again. But it has. One little test has me on edge.
I am anxious to get it done, but nervous about the results. I want to know…. but I am afraid of the results.
When I pee on that stick, will there be two lines or just one sad lonely negative little line?
I didn’t think I was ready for this test to be postive. I thought I wanted to fail a few more times… but I don’t. I wanted to be in better shape. I wanted my body to be more ready. I wanted to be thinner so I wasn’t the “Should I ask if she is pregnant or is she just fat” lady again. I wanted to be healthy but I also wanted to look super cute in maternity clothes. But now, I don’t care. Bring on the moo moos. I have never wanted to pass a test so badly.
I want to be pregnant.
Tomorrow morning I am taking the test. T wanted to be there when I take it. I think he knew I would be a bit emotional about the results, whichever way it turns out, so he suggested we do it Saturday morning (after all morning pee is the best pee!) Have I mentioned yet that I love my husband?
So, now it is the waiting game. Anytime I feel somethin’ somethin’ happening down there, I rush to the bathroom – praying the whole way that it isn’t Aunt Flo making her belated apperance.
In less than 24 hours, I am peeing on a stick….
In less than 24 hours, I will know for sure if all these “symptoms” are just another sign of battling swine flu or if it is the real deal.
In less than 24 hours, We will know if our family will be forever changed.
In less than 24 hours, ….. that is FOREVER away.
I am anxious. I want to pass. I want that stick to be positive. I want to be pregnant. I am ready to be pregnant.
I have also talked about getting pregnant and pre baby diets here, here, here, here and here!
Pre-Baby Diet Update
Oct 12th
I have not been able to make it to the gym because of the boys getting H1N1… yeah that’s right the freaking swine flu. After the swine flu, well not after it because you are contagious for 4-6 days after the fever breaks – so really it was somewhere toward the end of the swine flu, P got a double ear infection and M got a cold. Then… yes there is more! Then, I fell ( I was wearing Crocs in our disaster of a construction zone-so stupid!) and tore ligaments in my foot. I couldn’t walk on it for 6 days. It has been a week and a half since then and I am just now able to walk normal. I do okay for the bulk of the day, but by the end of the day I still need to elevate and ice.
So all of that, that is why I have not been to the gym.
BUT
And this is a big whopper of a BUT…
I have still lost 6 lbs. SIX! Not as much as I hoped for the month, but without going to the gym, 6 lbs is pretty dang good.
How did I do it? This is how:
I can not believe what a difference the a simple scale can make. I love it. At first, I do admit, that I felt like…. well I felt HUNGRY! Adjusting to eating the “correct” amount is tough but so doable. And now, the 3-4 ounce chicken breast is filling. It is satisfying. But not stuffing. Now, with my scale, I eat the right amount. I don’t need to unbutton my pants at the end of a meal AND I am loosing weight.
The scale has been a huge help but that doesn’t fix my impulsive need to eat comfort food. So with the help of the boys’ crayons and a huge sheet of paper I made this sure fire self check sign: My Self Help Singage!
Now if we could just get healthy and I could make it to the gym, I could shed enough weight so we could finally put the condoms away and start the baby making fun!
Check out other Pre-Baby Diet Posts:
Baby Fever
Sep 15th
I want to get pregnant. I am ready to get pregnant again. I want to be pregnant. I want to wear the cute new maternity clothes that Target has now. I want to make receiving blankets. I want to waddle around in flip flops. I want to eat for two. I want the magic wand rubbed over my belly and show me ten itty bitty fingers and toes. I want to feel her (I want a girl this time!) elbow poke me in the side. I even want to choke down those giant prenatal pills! I have a serious case of baby fever.
I have felt this coming on slowly over the past few months but with the craziness of summer, it was easy to push it to the back of my mind.
I am dreaming about being pregnant.
It is hard to ignore when the dreams you have at night start to morph into day dreams.
I had M, my oldest, 17 days before I turned 23 years old and 20 days before T and my first anniversary. He wasn’t planned. P was a surprise too.
Now that we have got this whole birth control thing under control, it is hard, so hard to choose when to start trying. Do we want another summer baby? That works great for family to be able to come visit. Do we want a Fall baby like P. Then I wouldn’t die of heat exhaustion like I did being 40 plus weeks pregnant with M in the heat of July. I know I don’t want a holiday baby. Holiday baby to me means anywhere from early November all the way through mid January.
We don’t want to wait another year. We know that for sure. M and P are 15 months apart and if we have another boy. I don’t there to be a huge gap. I don’t want him to feel left out. Plus… I am still not sure how I feel about having a fourth. I am on the “lets see how 3 goes” boat. I am 26 right now. I don’t want to have any kids past the age of 30. I will admit, I am already looking forward to the Golden Years and I don’t want to wait until I am 55 for the kids to be out of the house and out of our wallets.
So we know we want to start trying soon. Just how soon is the question. I went off birth control in August. I ran out of pills and figured… what the hell. We moved a year and a half ago. I still am not 100% sure who I will go to as an OB. So I have to figure that out too. By now, all the hormones have been flushed out of me. We are using condoms so as soon as we are ready we can start trying. But…How long will it take for us to get pregnant if we are actually trying? Will it happen right away? Because, if it did happen the first month, I think November or December would be perfect.
The other big factor, and probably the biggest factor, is I need to loose weight. I am just 10 lbs over where I was when I started this whole baby making adventure. But I want to be in better shape than that. I know that the better shape I am in, the easier the pregnancy and the faster the recovery. So if we started trying in November that would give me 2 months to get in shape. I can do it. It would be hard. But if I buckle down, I think KNOW I can get it done.
So there it is. I need to lose weight. I need to start taking my prenatals. I need to find a OB.
That shouldn’t be too hard, right? Weightloss is easy, right? Finding a doctor I feel comfortable with and that I want to birth my baby, piece of cake….right?
Shit. These next 2 months are going to be a bitch.
Tonight is my last night of indulgence. Then, its game time. Because I have baby fever and the only thing that will cure it is being knocked up. Bun in the oven. Preggers. With child. In the family way….
